Pure Land



in my last post i said “i’m ready to get my head into the game now!”  what i came away with from this 15 day experience has nothing to do with my head…but with my heart.  their are many levels of “minds” and the one i needed to connect with was my very subtle mind residing within my heart.  as we ALL know, academia, intellectual knowledge is wasted without application, and to go a step further in faith one must “feel” it, experience this within the heart.  without a heartfelt experience it does not benefit anyone except our minds of self-cherishing or as commonly known the ego!  in one of the first teachings the question was asked “do you want to be a theoretical Buddhist or a practical Buddhist?”  i had to challenge myself many times and ask sincerely within was i practicing with wisdom or was the awakening enough to go on? the intellectual (gross)mind is very strong for me i have always had great difficulty in just accepting love freely without my judging others reasons or my upbringing views i held onto about expressions of love.  i let go my attachments to my old views over the days there and allowed others even strangers show their love without my gross mind getting in the way.  how joyous, how liberating and vulnerable the feelings were and still are.  i feel as though i grew exponentially with compassion for others due to their kindness!

it sounds so easy what i speak about however it is your intellect, your gross mind interpreting or imputing your perception of what you read above/here.  the very subtle mind of compassion is not easy, simple yes in theory, however in true practice of application one has to let go of our ignorance we so dearly hold onto within and that is innate…at least for me!  

there were many insights or awakenings to my Buddha nature within, profound teachings, not just from my spiritual guides but from the people present.  AND i did not lose one pound even with the daily 2hr walks i took!  the lake district outside of the town of Ulverston was home base…a glorious cool 70′s with mist and rain off and on…the sun shone bright most days like blessings.

lake district, england…fog lifting or my interpretation of the fog of ignorance lifting from my wisdom eye

 Sangha mates from Tucson

Manjushri temple, approx. 2600 people in attendance from around the world

the many flowers on the property

 lastly…upon return to home i found a package from my relatives in japan. they made me a Senba-Zuru :  Senbazuru is a Japanese word meaning “1000 Cranes.” It is well-known for the legend which states that whoever folds 1000 origami cranes will be granted a wish.

i bow to all my kind mothers in this life whom have shown me great compassion, patience, love, kindness and riches beyond the material worlds….tomorrow i begin another new adventure, from the non-deceptive nature of Dharma into the deceptive nature of science.  my heart has changed thus so has my mind surrounding this process of chemo, i am more than ready…


Thank you dear kind Venerable Geshe Kelsang Gyatso




6 Responses to “Pure Land”

  • bookbird Says:

    those cranes are wonderful. Your life is always so full of colour! Hope you stay well, and keep writing. It is great to read your story.

  • Pei Ling Says:

    Dear Hazel,
    Thanks so much for sharing your experience. Pure Land is always there for everyone who has pure heart. We need to pay attention to our heart, what’s from within. I am glad that I have read this today.
    Peace and Joy.

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  • Michelle Waletitsch Says:

    Thanks so much for sharting that, Hazel. You speak so truly. I’m glad you’re all back safe and sound!

    Love, Michelle

  • Diana Yakowitz Says:

    I am so glad you had a wonderful retreat and have internalized all of this joy and serenity. I love the crane tower and all the images that you share with us. My mother visited for a month and it was wonderful to be with her here where there is so much less stress. She did not want to leave and may be back again soon. Hope this note finds you successfully dealing with this current phase of your recovery. I miss you.
    Love Diana

  • Cynthia R Says:

    I loved hearing about your retreat. It sounds like you gained so much from the experience. I know you must put quite a lot in as well. Your photos are beautiful, not surprisingly. Having “the eye” and all. Thinking of you as you continue. Much love.

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