Feb 28 2010

PNAU

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sambanova

visiting an old sculpture…looking thru “attachment”. no Beatles lyrics today, rainy day, contemplative..listening to :  http://www.last.fm/music/Pnau/Sambanova

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Feb 27 2010

I’m Looking Through You

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I’m looking through you, where did you go
I thought I knew you, what did I know
You don’t look different, but you have changed
I’m looking through you, you’re not the same

Your lips are moving, I cannot hear
Your voice is soothing, but the words aren’t clear
You don’t sound differnt, I’ve learned the game.
I’m looking through you, you’re not the same

Why, tell me why, did you not treat me right?
Love has a nasty habit of disappearing overnight.

You’re thinking of me, the same old way
You were above me, but not today
The only difference is you’re down there
I’m looking through you, and you’re no where.

Why, tell me why, did you not treat me right?
Love has a nasty habit of disappearing overnight.

I’m looking through you, where did you go
I thought I knew you, what did I know
You don’t look different, but you have changed
I’m looking through you, you’re not the same

spent my afternoon at the juvenile detention center here in tucson. was sitting in on a writing/poetry teaching, thanks to the wonderfully compassionate Madeline Kiser. this is a typical room, well, actually most do not have windows. talk about raw and real..it doesn’t get anymore real than this. the kids who attended the class were eight girls and two boys, with about that many monitors present at all times. i have never been exposed to incarceration or jail…it was enlightening to say the least! todays topic was on the “void” within. how karmic is that! a Buddhist gets invited to sit in on incarcerated youth expressing emptiness! the kids are NOT dumb..actually quite bright, some victims of abuse from family/friends, most addicts, struggling to make sense of what this life holds for them. truth is they live in a world of no win and i mean not just in their minds they are surrounded by negativity and violence and pressure. victims of our society and parents who betray and abandon them. one boy spoke of being in a gang and doing terrible things..wanting to get out but if he did then the other gangs would kill him because there was no one watching his back! girls filling their void with heroin because they have no voice, nothing to encourage a change and no one to turn to. again..i ask, how do we live in denial in our society to what is going on!? how do we help? how do we break this cycle of suffering? i intellectually understand the natural law of cause/effect (karma) but how do we as mere conventional minds make a difference on our youth today…to create causes where they will not choose negative actions? ALL i ask today is for you to open your heart and minds before judging anyone and ask yourself…how can i help.

AND this facility is the only one in the country that houses a “library” for its incarcerated youth, however due to cut backs they are in need of donations!

this is taken from one of their writings:

I’m fifteen years old. I’ve been through so much in life. I don’t know how to explain it! I’m locked up for all the dumb choices I’ve made, but I wish I never made them. When I was young I never had a dad around. My dad was locked up for eleven years. He passed away when i was twelve years old. My mom remarried when i was six. He was a drug addict. He introduced me to drugs. At the age of nine I started doing drugs. I disobeyed my mom. Now I have to be in CPS, but it’s only temporary. I hope you can give me advice. I love my family and miss them. Please help me out. Can you give me advice?

this program and excerpt exists thru “Inside/Out”. all published works are anonymous from this project and can be found through the Tucson Public Libraries. thank you Madeline for caring….

this was taken in their library, a mural painted by the kids…

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Feb 26 2010

You’ve Got To Hide Your Love Away

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Here I stand head in hand
Turn my face to the wall
If she’s gone I can’t go on
Feelin’ two-foot small

Everywhere people stare
Each and every day
I can see them laugh at me
And I hear them say

Hey you’ve got to hide your love away
Hey you’ve got to hide your love away

How could I even try
I can never win
Hearing them, seeing them
In the state I’m in

How could she say to me
Love will find a way
Gather round all you clowns
Let me hear you say

Hey you’ve got to hide your love away
Hey you’ve got to hide your love away

this is Marion DeGrazia…wife of Tucson’s famous artist Ted DeGrazia. she died back in 2003 at the age of 97. there is a long story of the two….i was able to know and see more of their personal history because my father was a close friend and did his lithographic reproductions. i grew up watching his gallery being built and his persona. i chose this Beatles lyrics for many reasons known to me….

in this picture one can see Marion did not like the camera or intrusion. she was a very private individual and her energy emitted this.  she lived 25 years past Ted’s death and managed his legacy…

love….should never be hidden away…for whatever reason, karma, there is always a cause and effect.


Feb 25 2010

Good Day Sunshine

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pink

Good Day Sunshine, Good Day Sunshine, Good Day Sunshine

I need to laugh and when the sun is out
I’ve got something I can laugh about
I feel good in a special way
I’m in love and it’s a sunny day

Good Day Sunshine, Good Day Sunshine, Good Day Sunshine

We take a walk, the sun is shining down
Burns my feet as they touch the ground

Good Day Sunshine, Good Day Sunshine, Good Day Sunshine

Then we’d lie beneath the shady tree
I love her and she’s loving me
She feels good, she knows she’s looking fine
I’m so proud to know that she is mine.

Good Day Sunshine, Good Day Sunshine, Good Day Sunshine

life is like a dream…life is a dream…dream, dream, dream…

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Feb 24 2010

A Day In The Life

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tom

I read the news today oh boy
About a lucky man who made the grade
And though the news was rather sad
Well I just had to laugh
I saw the photograph.
He blew his mind out in a car
He didn’t notice that the lights had changed
A crowd of people stood and stared
They’d seen his face before
Nobody was really sure
If he was from the House of Lords.
I saw a film today oh boy
The English Army had just won the war
A crowd of people turned away
but I just had to look
Having read the book.
I’d love to turn you on
Woke up, fell out of bed,
Dragged a comb across my head
Found my way downstairs and drank a cup,
And looking up I noticed I was late.
Found my coat and grabbed my hat
Made the bus in seconds flat
Found my way upstairs and had a smoke,
Somebody spoke and I went into a dream
I read the news today oh boy
Four thousand holes in Blackburn, Lancashire
And though the holes were rather small
They had to count them all
Now they know how many holes it takes to fill the Albert Hall.
I’d love to turn you on

i find the lyrics on this song quite sad and disturbing, just as i found Tom. my homeless homie who works the intersection by my warehouse. today i noticed he had a new sign so i decided to strike up a conversation with him. turns out he just got out of jail yesterday…when i asked what got him there he said “standing on the corner with a sign”. he’s 52 yrs old and has cancer so he has no intention of giving up beer. doesn’t like most people though he’s truly harmless (to others).  my heart breaks in just knowing he’s out there suffering…where does he sleep? where does he go, by midday everyday he is gone. people drive by him daily because i see him daily (except when he’s in jail) and i wonder…how do we help one another? how do you choose, when and where to help…anyone? tonight i meditate on the suffering of/in this life and ALL those whom choose to deny they are not like him.


Feb 23 2010

I Saw Her Standing There

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1 – 2 – 3 – 4 !

Well, she was just 17,
You know what I mean,
And the way she looked was way beyond compare.
So how could I dance with another (ooh)
And I saw her standin’ there.

Well she looked at me, and I, I could see
That before too long I’d fall in love with her.
She wouldn’t dance with another (whooh)
And I saw her standin’ there.

Well, my heart went “boom,”
When I crossed that room,
And I held her hand in mine…

Whoah, we danced through the night,
And we held each other tight,
And before too long I fell in love with her.
Now I’ll never dance with another (whooh)
Since I saw her standing there

Well, my heart went “boom,”
When I crossed that room,
And I held her hand in mine…

Whoah, we danced through the night,
And we held each other tight,
And before too long I fell in love with her.
Now I’ll never dance with another (whooh)
Since I saw her standing there

another color slide scanned and converted to BW from the project “The Book of Walls”. taken back in 1985 in front of the Arizona Inn, this a dancer back then, Mary Beth.  full of grace and beauty…though for the life of me i cannot remember this particular moment of a double exposure! how fleeting one’s memory can be! another reminder of impermanence……


Feb 22 2010

One Day

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IMG_0752Sometimes I lay under the moon
And I thank God I’m breathing
Then I pray don’t take me soon
Cause I am here for a reason

Sometimes in my tears I drown
But I never let it get me down
So when negativity surrounds
I know someday it’ll all turn around because

All my life I been waiting for
I been prayin for
For the people to say
That we don’t want to fight no more
They’ll be no more wars
And our children will play

today, thanks to my bestest mate who won a pass at a local radio station, i got to spend the afternoon in an intimate setting kickin it with Matisyahu! hit this link  http://www.matisyahuworld.com/music and scroll down to “One Day”, not the one w/akon tho….his lyrics have always made me a fan. i really like his older stuff but this particular song hit a chord inside…i hope it does for you as well. this world needs more youth making a powerful difference in/thru their art!

hazel and matisyahuneedless to say, he has a fan for life right here in tucson!!


Feb 21 2010

The Long and Winding Road

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BW taiko

The long and winding road that leads to your door,
Will never disappear,
I’ve seen that road before It always leads me here,
Leads me to your door.

The wild and windy night the rain washed away,
Has left a pool of tears crying for the day.
Why leave me standing here, let me know the way
Many times I’ve been alone and many times I’ve cried
Anyway you’ll never know the many ways I’ve tried, but
Still they lead me back to the long and winding road
You left me standing here a long, long time ago
Don’t leave me waiting here, lead me to you door
Da, da, da, da

taken in the evening at home with mom. funny how life always brings me back…to what is most important. it took me years of adulthood to understand our dynamics and in the end it all doesn’t matter, she’s my mom. she is selfless, loving, giving, compassionate and innately truthful! what more needs to be said…..


Feb 20 2010

Tomorrow Never Knows

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tea

Turn off your mind, relax and float down stream,
It is not dying, it is not dying

Lay down all thoughts, surrender to the void,
It is shining, it is shining.

Yet you may see the meaning of within
It is being, it is being

Love is all and love is everyone
It is knowing, it is knowing

And ignorance and hate mourn the dead
It is believing, it is believing

But listen to the colour of your dreams
It is not leaving, it is not leaving

So play the game “Existence” to the end
Of the beginning, of the beginning

legitimate rain day in the desert….good day for quiet meditation..reflection and contemplation.


Feb 19 2010

The Word

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words

Say the word and you’ll be free
Say the word and be like me
Say the word I’m thinking of
Have you heard the word is love?
It’s so fine, It’s sunshine
It’s the word, love
In the beginning I misunderstood
But now I’ve got it, the word is good

Spread the word and you’ll be free
Spread the word and be like be
Spread the work I’m thinking of
Have you heard the word is love?
It’s so fine, It’s sunshine
It’s the word, love
Every where I go I hear it said
In the good and bad books that I have read

Give the word a chance to say
That the word is just the way
It’s the word I’m thinking of
And the only word is love
It’s so fine, It’s sunshine
It’s the word, love
Now that I know what I feel must be right
I’m here to show everybody the light

Say the word and you’ll be free
Say the word and be like me
Say the word I’m thinking of
Have you heard the word is love?
It’s so fine, It’s sunshine
It’s the word, love